Well today is my first day on this site. I am not sure if I am posting this in the right spot. My name is Kathleen. I am clean and sober and have been since Oct 2005. I love life. I love being S.O.B.E.R. I love the fact that I can keep my word to my little boy. I like the fact that my family can trust me. I love going to work knowing every week I am going to have guaranteed money to pay my bills. Not money, thats disappears because it was made illegally. I cherish waking up every morning. First, seeing my precious little boy lay there.Second, looking around at everything I have gotten for myself. It's only through Gods amazing grace that I have what I have in my life. I have a bed to sleep on , food in my fridge, I have a vehicle, I have more T.V.'s than I need and ya' know what?? I didnt get them from a clucker. I got them all legit. Everything I own is mine , not anyone else's and it feels good to be in control. I used meth from age 14 to 25. (Minus the time I was pregnant) I sold it. Got busted for sales of a dangerous drug back in 2000. I did 5.5 probation /2 Years IPS ( Intense Probation Services) and a year in county. I made it through the whole thing!!! I have learned so much. My life has always been blessed by the Lord's Presence. I have known him since I was young and have kept him in my life. He pulled me out of stormy waters. Carried me when I was too weak to walk. Held me when I only felt I had myself. Then took over for me when I felt I didnt. I made to Tucson's Most wanted , Number three to be exact. I had a name for myself out there. I was feared by some. I felt I couldn't be touched. I was raised surviving on the minimum of things. My father was a drug addict and dealer. He neglected alot of things but always struggled to show us that life isn't easy.That if you wanted to survive than you better find something to do it with. He always had a fulltime job as a constuction worker. But, he was a drug dealer pulling in overtime.He was still my daddy and I am still close to him today. I admit he showed us alot of bad. But, as a parent myself and knowing how powerful addiction is makes me see where he was in that time of my deseperate need for a father. I raised myself along with my sister , while my dad went on drug runs or slept long hours even days. I grew up depending on me and only me. I still prayed when I was younger and I know God answered me in his own perfect ways. I always made it. It wasnt easy but I made it through the storm. My dad made it off meth as well. He is living in San Diego on the beach!!! (Not in the sand- In his own home) He is a superintendant of a construction company. He's been clean about 7 yrs. I know that through his sobriety , as well as mine, my son has a better chance of staying clean. The cycle is broken. He can live life not fearing the dark , when there's no electricty. He can open the fridge and find something to eat. He can cover up with a clean blanket . He can be a kid and not a grown up. This story is just a piece. This is only a decimal of what has happened in my life. You dont need to hear everything. I am sure you have been through it too. I just want to say today ..I AM S.O.B.E.R. . I am not going to waste time on meth or its destruction. I plan to go into schools next year and present a video on meth. I want to talk to high school and jr high kids about the danger of it. I am waiting on approval right now from the corporate offices in the schools. Pray for me please. I really feel this is a calling . God is turning what Satan intended to cause harm with into something for his good. I can do it!!!! I will do it!!!!! You can too!!!!!!!!