Jay,
God bless you for enduring the slings and arrows of your past. I know it is difficult sometimes to walk the walk when the homies no longer got your back. Even so, always remember that it is in YOUR BELIEFS that you will find salvation. Who cares what "dem other peoples" think? Was it not a thief that hung on a cross next to Jesus at the crucifiction? As his life was slipping away, this thief confessed his OWN BELIEF that Jesus was the Messiah. The Lamb's blood washed him free of sin & he was promised his place in paradise. It didn't matter what the MASSES believed about that thief then, and so it is today.
FOR GOD SO LOVED THE WORLD THAT HE GAVE HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, THAT WHOSOEVER BELIEVETH IN HIM SHALL NOT PERISH, BUT HAVE EVERLASTING LIFE.
You, my friend, are also that "whosoever".
Does it really matter what "dem other peoples" think?
Continue walking the walk in loving kindness and you too, will find your place in paradise.
Pray for those that continue to persecute you & perhaps they will find their place in paradise as well.
(Yeah, I know...that's the tricky part.)
Peace be with you.